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| there's definitely some stuff that i've missed about being home
and some stuff i definitely don't miss.
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dad was in a funky mood today.
i guess it's okay since i won't be home for another 2 weeks.
then it's his birthday, so he hopefully will be in better spirits.
of course with my dad, there's no guarantees. hehe.
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i went to home depot today with my dad.
he made me do the heavy lifting. cause he was wearing a dress shirt. lol.
we now have 6 bags of top soil and 4 bags of manure sitting in our garage.
i know, cause i lifted them all.
and if you were wondering, the bathroom is THAT way. *points* ;D
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Many of my friends had exams Sunday night.
as some debated whether or not to go to church that morning and others just were nervous and/or worrying that they did not study enough, i decided that the best thing to tell them was.
"have a little faith."
that as you act in accordance with God's will he will provide everything you need including a good grade.
I had an exam Monday afternoon. I had studied well for it and felt prepared enough that I just relaxed and took a nap before my exam. I found out a few hours later that the results were not good.
disappointed I am, yet echoing in my head is the same phrase that I had given as advice to my friends.
except this time, it's not faith that God will provide a good grade, but that God will demonstrate his provision through a bad one.
How? I guess we'll just wait and see.
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| it's amazing how time flies and how things change. or don't change.
i meant to write a reflection of OIL like, right after i came back from it.
Sure, it wasn't like, an emotional high or anything.
in the moment, i felt like it just reinforced everything that i believed already.
in looking back did i realized the impact.
i wanted to pray more
i wanted to experience that fellowship more
i wanted to see God work
i wanted to see God reach
i wanted to listen to more sermons
we're nearing on 2 months from OIL. and i'm hitting one of times where everything just seems to go wrong.
the 3 s's of college all gone haywire. this past week, i've wanted to put my foot in my mouth, to throw things very hard, to go back in time, to yell very loudly, to turn off my brian. i've found it hard to pray, hard to fellowship, hard to see God and see his reach, and hard to find time for listening to sermons.
i strive to look to God through it all. rely on Him more. He is greater than all things, even things that begin with the letter s. i must make sure i'm not putting any of those above Him. through this, He'll shape and grow me. and even with all the mistakes i make, the sins i commit, He still takes me back when i turn back and gives me a little push forward.
like they said at OIL: there's no such thing as moonwalking. God's pulling the carpet.
But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.
seek Him, o heart and soul.
Maybe i'm just thinking like this cause i'm reading through ezekiel right now. hah.
i feel whiny and emo. haha. but i do believe God is pointing me back to Him.
i just pray that i will stop looking at myself and inward and start looking up and outward. since i think through that i will ultimately be able to live a life worthy of the gospel.
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